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She left tonight i had always wanted this i have always dreaded it i have loathed it i have craved it i have needed it i have done it ... And yet my pain imbraces the guilt like the ribbon caught in the tree so long searching yearning just wanting to be free and now i am alone what will become of me ? What will bear my lowly name what person will save me yet again what drug will kill all the pain what if i could never feel not once again ... and i wonder as i look to the stars was it me taking charge was it me who broke this pretty girls heart ? i dont ever want to be this , i dont want her to cry there was a time when i

Brutal suffering my gentle embrace chokes your oxygen breathe not and the sleep will come unwakeable unbreakable unescapeable this is my death this is my final glimpse at this globe of malicious intent hollowed screams shake my spirit nothing can help me breath this pitiful world no life within it when my dreams leap from the unwaking rest they were relesed upon the world around me breathing smoke ten foot tall creatures of vicious destruction this is the violence with no intent thats right , you can spit your words unto me now spit down the barrel of my vengance exploding shells land the bodies bleeding where they lay no r

I will sell different souls for not what they need . Kissing the sky from the money and greed When this becomes all i see my suffering bleeds Dripping to the carpet tying me into what I have never wanted My wrists sore from these chains I pull harder but as to no avail M strength is sapped my love shatters my skin turns pale This is the broken man of the shade. And when they ask you did you know him well You can tell them that you couldn't care Tell them that he was never there Tell them that he were black as the dark sun All alone, closest to no one. This broken man of the shade Watching the world heave and concave Looking